Bridgeport prize winner

So I wrote this and was going to enter it in to a competion, called "the bridgeport writing competion". But I completely forgot to finish it and missed the deadline. so i thought i may as well post it on here :)

enjoy.

There is no pleasant way to die.

I could bite your head off, you could die all together barely being touched but then the acid hits and your slowly burn and melt in to the nothingness, I could force you to kiss as I watched, or press you together in a sixty nine position then after you have been humiliated, I will bite you both and end it quickly for you. I'm kind like that.

God damn I love gummy-bears.

Sitting in the dark save for the white glow of my computer screen, I wonder if I should draw my curtains closed, they are no longer serving there daytime purpose of letting light in so I will let them start there night time duty of keeping murders and monsters from looking in. I’m typing to win the Bridgeport prize, I wasn't going to enter because I saw little point in paying money I don't have to enter a competition I cant win, but I have had words swirling around my head for months now so either I am meant to be a writer or I am a crazy person, well actually why not both?

I want to be a writer, I think I always have really. Well apart from that small phase went I wanted to be a pokemon trainer. But after I realised pokemon didn’t exist and if they did pokemon training would most likely be illegal for being straight up animal abuse, I got over that and went back to the whole writing thing, the kind of writer I want to be … no scratch that the kind of person I want to be is that sort of super cool in between level of famous where you can walk around with out bodyguards or paparazzi following you, but your fans will recognise you and ask for pictures or autographs, a bit like Zooey Deschanel I love Zooey Deschanel, she has the exact perfect level of fame.

Ok I am rambling, I just thought you should get to know me a bit before I carried on, so you could see im not crazy. But after re reading what I just typed I feel I have done the exact opposite of what I intended, oh well cant go back now, I'm on a typewriter. Just kidding i'm not some hipster wannabe that takes his/her incredibly pretentious, has to be retro typewriter to Starbucks (which by the way must be so inconvenient and way more hassle then its worth) all just for attention, or to Instagram it to your millions of hipster followers. I have Instagram by the way, but I only have 7 followers and i'm pretty sure 3 of them are scambots.

Have you read the book grow up by ben brooks? I have I gave it 3 stars on goodreads but I can't

get it out of my head so maybe it deserved more? i dunno. have you read junior by macaulay

culkin? i have. for a while it was my favorite book it was the first book i read for a second time,

both of these books are completely different but they are similar in the fact i liked them because

they are totally random and completely pointless, like seriously you finish them and genuinely

wonder what the heck was the moral or conclusion, there is no kind of overall cathartic (is that

the right word i'm looking for? probably not.) end.

I want this story to be like those ones, i did have a story, I started for this competition. it was

about a girl stuck in the same day over and over, like groundhog day. but i found it boring and

struggled to continue.(good sell, bridie really instilled confidence in your skills there) do you want

to read some of it?

To late its happening….. now.

How many days in a year?

You all probably just answered 365 right? Wrong. One. There is one day, that is it and I have lived that

one day over for 1090 days. Bill Murray hasn’t got shit on me.

If you are wondering what happened, I can’t help answer that, I have no idea. but the one thing I am sure

of is I am all alone and fucked. To be honest I didn’t even realize the days hadn’t changed for about a

week, I rarely interact with others or go outside unless necessary, but after the eighth time of my teacher

going over the same algebra lesson I started to catch on.

I have watched everything on TV at least 3 times over and I have eaten the same crappy mac and cheese

my mum makes almost everyday for three years, I don’t know how my mum hasn’t noticed my aging she

sometimes stares at my face for long periods over dinner but never questions me, I guess she puts it down

to puberty. I do my part by keeping my style the same and wearing baggy hoodies to cover up the breasts

that to her would have developed over night.

Within the first few months of this, I tried to figure out how to change things. I stopped going to school

(what’s the point) and I spent my days at the library or blockbuster video, trying to do all the research I

could on time loops or what ever the hell this is, I have watched groundhog day over and over to see what

I need to do, but I haven’t found any answers, I have apologised to all the people I might have wronged, I

have given to charity, I have helped old people cross the street, I even saved a freaking cat from a tree,

but nothing has worked. I’m currently reading a few books on the topic but as this is usually something

that is fictional I don’t have a very good jumping off point.

I wrote more, but i can't show you all of it. got a word count to watch for, haha.

1002.

if you found that story interesting, or thought it had potential. please dont tell me, i think i would

prefer not to know that i carried on with the wrong one (sobs quietly)

do you know who else i admire? well of course you dont , you dont even know who i am, and

even if you did know (which would be creepy) you cant exactly answer me, at best you can talk

to the page in front of you, but that would be weird. anyway the person i admire is mindy lahiri

(not mindy kaling the actress who plays her) the actual character, she is literally my spirit animal (not quite sure what that means, if its sexual then i think i take it back). anyway the reason why,

is because the charater, does and says things, that i think and feel but in a way more human and

genuine way then other tv characters.